Karina's poems and maybe occasional something else...

So, here my stuff will be displayed. I specialise in dark poetry, sometimes way too dark lol, so don't be scared of me, this is all products of my twisted mind. And, obviously, judge me, I still aim to get better at this and will take any critique.

Creeping death

In the shadow of a dying day,
I watch the colours fade away.
In this world, around, I'm no more
but a parasite in dismay
Drained of life, led into darkness astray.

Albeit bitter, my breath still goes on
even though my heart feels like it's done.
Longing for freedom, I want to arrive home.
But my dear, the only one
the arms of whom are the only shelter, so warm
no trace of his divine presence, his soul has been torn.

Each second of life hurts like betrayal
each second of life seems so frail.
In my mind I wish to fall asleep - away, in death sail.
The quest of my life is going to fail.
Death has hit me, my coffin gained another nail.

Once, just once, I wish he could hold me here
and the whole world would again become pure and sincere.
Living made some sense when it was done with my dear,
but now, nothing's ever clear.
His death made my existence shallow and mere.

I kissed the cross and prayed, wishing for an answer from heaven
burnt my path with tears, elixir of my sorrow I've breaven
- but all I heard was his voice, his angelic face was in front of me again.
He whispered lovesongs to me, I reached to touch him
- but the vision of him was no more here.

Feeling the ice cold ground under me cheek
I fell for the last time, waiting to get buried deep.
I begged for promised heaven, yet it betrayed me, I cannot take no more.
I'm empty, I feel mo more, I'm frozen to the core.

This damnation drove me into a deep slumber,
away from it all I wish to be, in the ground, deep under.
Dead to the world, his memory tears me asunder.
I don't want to live, I wish to join him in his heaven, wounded deeply.
Hear me, deity, and free me from this madness!

Snow falls on my face, but I can't see.
In my disgrace, I feel the world running from me.
My cold heart slowed down, my lips whispered towards the sea
- Mother, forgive me.
But I'm nothing without him.

^That was great! Very Happy

It reminded me of Draconian lyrics. Razz

:O Thanks a lot.

Killed

If every teardrop could kill,
how many would meet their end?
If every cut could orphan,
how many young would get struck with dread?

In my mind I've lost count of,
how many times my heart broke.
My cup of misery still lovingly feeds me,
why have I in this bitter strife awoke?

I gave them all it took to know me,
but they used it to reach deep into my soul,
tear all I had from within, piece by piece
and draw a poem written with my death.

Went ahead to shame me, pronouncing me their prey and slave,
drowning me in their sea, binding me with its waves.
Controlling my life till this very day, I still haven't found a way to break free
even if they're not in my presence, not physical anymore,
they're still in my head.

Beaten, with dreams futile, I dream to fade away,
to be dead.

Infatuated

Your world has never been mine,
and I didn't desire it before.

In this shallow life, all I needed,
was your comforting voice.
In darkest times, I hungered for your
resonating embrace.

As a soulmate, I adored your face
and would do anything to save your life.
I couldn't think of anything impure
- could sacrifice a lot to comfort you.

But as time went, my heart grew sunk and hurt me
whenever I saw you with another one, better than me.
I wished I was her.
It felt like you've been to desert me.

Strong was my head, but stronger was the pain of my heart.
I felt a piece of me dying apart
when everytime I walked past you and felt your scent so clear
I wanted to die in your arms, as an only one for your heart dear.

Forever is something I never believed in
but you could have been a great exception.
I begun to show my sick affection...
to a great misconception.

All I was to you was a friend you could rely on,
and while it was better than nothing, all I wanted was to be alone.
I couldn't imagine someone other than you to share my pitiful life with.
My days have become so grey, so grated.
I've become too, with you, infatuated.

My demise

I didn't let out a word,
and never will again,
this night is as deep as ever, covering the world.

I give my soul to you,
even though you don't deserve it,
since you want my stories to be told.

And they'll be narrated by no other one than you,
the one who'll fill them with sweat, pain and blood,
but it shall be forgiven.

I've my own good bereaved for the sake of your guts I despise.
Because my sick love for you is leading to my demise.
And I grew to love this pain. I take no stance against your hate.

Because one day you might change, and to see it, I will be too late.

You kill me, but I want no other one than you.
If only you could see what you're doing, see me through.

Memory of a dying man.

To see a ray of light,
is not a thing to let go.
To feel a light blow of wind,
surrounds my mind with dead smoke.

As I lay there, waiting to bid farewell to everything,
holding my wife's hand who'd give anything,
to keep me here where the seven nights collide;
but she doesn't see, all the light within me died.

Sure I love her more than a warm sun loves earth
but right now all I need to do is accept my rebirth..
I almost see the meadows of heaven, so bright.
But my love for human and shallow holds me here tight.

I really hate the thought of not being there for my son,
when he'll graduate, and his mother will find another one.
I hate the thought of not meeting my child's wife,
I'll see it from above, but it's not the same as in human life.

I don't like the thought of being up there alone,
leaving my family crying, leaving my family mourn.
Who knows if what I'm seeing isn't just an illusion,
and heaven is just a foolish delusion?

Who knows if after I slip away fast,
and my strife of living will no more last.
Who knows if I'll not be watching pure darkness, alone,
and I'll no more remember faces of those I love?

To take a deep breath in the light if sun,
and watch the clouds go by with my only one.
To feel nature in my face, that's why,
I chose such a heavenly way to die.

It's gonna be hard, I'm scared, I'm gullible,
but I'm not gonna change the inevitable;
those green eyes crying, mourning my life go by,
suddenly all is black, I can't think of why.

I can't think, it's just all… away.

Tell me there's a God.

Now tell me there's a God
when violence strikes mother nature.
Trash, burning, general destruction.
Man damage, brings to man danger.

Tell me there's a God,
when suffering touches the innocent.
When cancer strikes down the youngest of us,
and all you hear is their parents' painful lament.

Tell me there's a God,
when differences and loving the same breed is damned.
People are killed for sharing their love.
Sharing a touch of the hand.

Tell me there's a God,
if we can't achieve peace.
Longing for positive emotion, yet hesitant
to show love people often cease.

Tell me there's a God
when people aren't born perfect, some rotten and cruel.
Without a thought they kill,
and later they think they're cool.

Show me a way to heaven,
when you are broken and imperfect yourself.
Show me how to achieve eternal happiness,
around my human flaws.
Prove me there is a way,
and I can get through this strife,
your holy spirit calls a gift of life.

a moment.

when I held your hand at 5 pm

the city seemed so blooming

and air smelt like roses, so stunning

when I kissed your lips at 6 pm

the lust seemed so consuming

and we welcomed for our fire ballooning

when I stroked your cheek at 7 pm

the world seemed so friendly

i had not needed to care for it, but my love unending

when I left you standing alone at 8 pm

and we shared one last kiss

the end was the only thing i'd miss

Your poems are so good! They all flow so smoothly and build a strong atmosphere.
This stanza in the first poem you posted really got me:

"Each second of life hurts like betrayal
each second of life seems so frail.
In my mind I wish to fall asleep - away, in death sail.
The quest of my life is going to fail.
Death has hit me, my coffin gained another nail."

It's like a build up and then in your face. Like this ALOT.
Keep it up! Wink

Very, very impressive karina. keeping writing and posting. Smile

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